"I don't know what love is. I'm selfish and lazy..."

I had an epiphany this morning while rinsing out the milk canisters at work. As I dumped out the old milk and started filling the metal tubes with warm water, I realized that what I have been thinking and dreaming about for as long as I can remember is a man to love me. How selfish and lazy is that? That is not "love" either. I need to be focusing on loving others not others loving me. Until I learn that love is not something I should be grasping for from others but something I should be freely showering on others I'm going to continue in this cold, exhausting life I've been leading. Besides this end to seeking of love from other people, I also need to realize that I have no need to seek love from God, and that's the most important. I need to change myself to be giving my love to God, not just recieving his love. As Madeleine Peyroux's song confirms, I really don't know what love is. I have been selfish and lazy about it just sucking up whatever anyone would give me and not giving and doing as much as I should.

Who ever knew that rinsiing out the milk canisters could be so enlightening?