A dream last night has been bothering me. I've been thinking about all those in my past who have intentionally and un-intentionally been hurt by me. Sometimes I seriously think I am incapable of a normal human relationship. I drift in and out of friendships and relationships, taking forever to get into them and so easily sliding out of them. Ever since 7th grade I have had strong friendships, but none of them really last over a year. Thank God there has always been someone there when I have needed someone to lean on, but when my trouble is over and my life starts to drift elsewhere, they get left behind.
Is it my self-centeredness that my mum harps on constantly? Is it my shyness? Is it a fear of being hurt like I was when I was twelve? God only knows.
I guess I just want to apologize to all I have knowingly and un-knowingly hurt because of things I have knowingly or un-knowingly done.
Qui êtes-vous ?
- Jane
- How does one define a person? By the things they do? The clothes they wear? The people they hang out with? Who their family is? Where they went to school? What religion they are? What race they are? The thoughts in their head? The feelings in their heart? Or maybe not at all...
2 commentaires:
Jane, being in a relationship by nature opens us up to being hurt--and being self-centered is part of human nature (think about babies and how they're concerned only about their needs and desires). It's a part of maturity to think about your failings (because we all have them) and try to change. Finding community is hard and you're not alone in wishing for close friendships that last. So don't get too down on yourself; you're a wonderful, sweet person that I'm happy to count as a friend.
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